Tuesday, June 12, 2007

this is the first hundredth post in my blog .

dont know why i'm feeling so weird today .
smth just seems to be missing in my life .
just smth that i can feel but cant have it with me always .
i'm just so confused by my own feeling and emotions .
i just couldn't think properly .
fortunately this doesn't affect me during the bio SPA in the morning .
but it's like bothering me the whole day .
after going to causeway point , i took bus to my ah ma hse .
slpt on the bus , luckily i didn't overslp .
when i arrived around bukit panjang area .
i woke up and realised it's raining .
or should i say it's drizzling only .
okay nvm . i dont even care la .
i like the rain . but today dont seems to be the right day to enjoy the rain alone .
so once i reached the bus stop at gombak , i dropped off .
i walked along the path to my ah ma hse , it's still raining at tt moment and i dont have a habit of bring umbrella with me .
so just walked in the rain .
everyone was like staring at me , maybe they're thinking why the girl wants to walk in the rain instead of finding a shelter .
well , i'm like that de la .
always prefer to be wet to bring an umbrella to keep myself dry .
so i walked walked and con't to walk .
i seem to be clearing my mind at the very point when i was walking .
but it's like so messed up in my brain till i cant sort it out within that few minutes .
hais . it's been long since i'd this kind of feeling lor .
is it becos it's holiday which cos me to feel so empty ?
or is it becos of someone i saw today ?
well i really dont know .
and i dont wish to know the reason .
the only thing i want is to let myself get out of this mess .
i dont want feel so troubled and being bothered by smth which is unnecessary la .
arghh .

oh nvm . 终之,我今天心情不是很好.

~~past~~,present,future 10:45 PM.